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Perspective Shifting Thanks

I’ve been eating cheese on and off for about 2 weeks now.  I thought the girls may have been outgrowing their dairy sensitivity and honestly cheese is the only thing I miss. We’ve had no diapers rashes, and no weird diaper fillings, and the girls have mostly been themselves.  But over the last 2 weeks we’ve seen an increase in terrible gas attacks: 3 since I sneaked my first cheese.  Couple this with Bronwyn’s new eczema and I’m certain that the three of us will be diary free for the next four months.

Tonight’s gas attack was a major 2 1/2 hour episode. Derek and I had lost track of time last night and stayed up until midnight and the girls woke this morning at 6:15.  Normally a screaming baby under those circumstances would result in me loosing patience and crying to have a moment alone, a moment’s rest.  But tonight as I rocked and snuggled with my screaming children, I thought: what a blessing it is to have extra hours to snuggle and rock a precious baby who will only be this small for such a short time.

I’m not even halfway to a thousand yet, but this blessing counting, this thanksgiving: it is changing me.  For thanksgiving (the art of reflecting glory back to the One who owns it all) is what we all were made to do. 

442. 2.5 hours of extra snuggling and rocking time on the last night these little ones will ever be 7 months old
443. Finally catching my first girls smiling together photo since 4 months. 
444. A walk with Derek while the girls happily suck on prunes through a mesh feeder in their stroller
445. Visiting Lindy and making her a milkshake before precious little Brandt arrives
446. Watching God strengthen all of us in our small group as He cares for little Brandt and provides for all their needs
447. Aeralind laughing hysterically at Lindy’s dog Shelby after being licked
448. Bronwyn petting Shelby
449. Someone who understands the acronyms/trials of NSTs and BPPs
450. A Mason Jar Bouquet of backyard flowers

451. Dancing with Margaret and the gang at the Seminary on our anniversary
452. Both girls playing happily on the floor 1.5 hours after bedtime so we could dance
453. 4 years of marriage
454. A playdate at Sarmite’s
455. Seeing Jenny again
456. Unexpected new toys from Sarmite
457. Craisins
458. Air Conditioning
459. Grapes, Melon, Strawberries

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Milk Allergic/Sensitive Recipes: S’more KrispieTreats

I majored in Outdoor Leadership in college (no kidding!)so needless to say I have a love affair with all things S’more-ish. Regular s’mores are dairy free if you use dairy free chocolate, but I went a step farther.

S’more Krispie Treats
Ingredients

  • 1.5 Tbs dairy-free magarine
  • 2 C mini marshmallows
  • 3 C crushed Quaker Cinnamon Life Cereal
  • 1/8 cup dairy-free chocolate chips

Directions

  1. Melt margarine over low heat in a medium saucepan. 
  2. Meanwhile grease a pie dish or 9×9 pan. (I used canola oil).
  3. Stir marshmallows into the saucepan until melted
  4. Stir in cereal (and chocolate chips here if you like)
  5. Press into pie dish/pan
  6. Sprinkle and press chocolate chips on top
  7. Cool and enjoy

I promise I’ll try to do more dinner stuff soon, but right now I’ve been doing a lot of turkey or ham and mashed potatoes and gravy meals.  Or grilled meat and steamed veggies. Simple summer stuff like that.  

4 Year Anniversay

My Dearest Derek,
4 years ago today I kissed you barefoot in a park wearing a white dress and promised that I’d be yours no matter what.  I’m pretty sure I never made a better promise 🙂

Everyday you make me laugh.
Everyday you crawl back in be to snuggle me close and whisper “I love you” a bazillion times (even when I brush you off in busy-ness).
Everyday you sing silly songs.
Everyday you shake your head at me as I do something crazy.
Everyday you say “Gosh! You look hot in that!” and really mean it (even if I haven’t gotten out of my pjs!).
Everyday you play my crazy nose flicking game…and sometimes you let me win :-p
Everyday you listen to me talk or whine or vent or be quiet.
Everyday you pray for me.

I never would have imagined all that God had in store for us for year ago on this evening.
… the unemployed summer
… the melon garden in TR
… the loss of two cats
… the hikes
… the failures
… the fights
… the chili so hot it turned our faces red
… the homemade ice cream
… the Rummy game that has a score well into the 30,000s
… the tough jobs
… the purchase of this house
… the twin pregnancy
… the tight finances
… the sleepless nights
the constant battle against pink
… the tears

This year of our marriage started the day before we found out we were having two girls.  You grew so much as you waited on God’s provision each month (and some months it was sooo close) even though you were terrified that you’d be unable to provide for three women.  You spent half the summer lugging my huge self around the neighborhood pool so that I could feel weightless for just a little while.  You laughed at me teasingly as I tried to hoist myself out of bed.  I will never forget how you tenderly prayed for me before they wheeled me into the OR for my spinal.  Or the look on your face as you held both of our daughters.

I never would have made it through the sleeplessness if you had not lovingly sent me to bed each evening while you watched the girls or taken the girls downstairs most mornings for “loud music” time with daddy.  I never would have been successful at breastfeeding if you had not willingly got up with me at the beginning to feed a baby while I fed the other baby and pumped.  Or if you had not retrieved both babies and gently placed them on the nursing pillow in the later days.  Your support is vital to me; I couldn’t do this without you.

I love watching your relationship with the girls grow.  They adore you! From your tummy raspberries that have them in stitches, to sitting on your desk playing computer games, to feeding them supper, and praying with them at night they can’t get enough of you. You love them so much it hurts (and it will hurt some unsuspecting you suitor if you follow your defense plan).

I love you so much, Derek.  I can’t wait to see where year 5 will take us.  Thank for loving us and providing for us in such a self-sacrificing way.

8 Months!

These precious little life changing–life enriching–little gifts have been with us for 8 months now.

8 months of
…sweet little snuggles
…kissing little heads
…unfathomable tenderness coming from my husbands hands
…learning about my own selfishness
…dragon noises
…becoming thankful for 8 uninterrupted hours of sleep
…tiny desses
…seeing double
…struggling to be made new
…pure joy

These little girls just get sweeter and sweeter as the months go by! I wish I could freeze time for just a moment to savor the sweetness as it is right now, but I know that this next month will be even sweeter… and perhaps even more chaotic as I’m practically certain that mobility will arrive this month!

Aeralind Grace

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You are a little koala these days.  Earlier this month you learned to hold onto my body with your legs while being carried.  You cling to my clothing when your are tired and nestle your head on my chest and suck your thumb quietly.  I savor that time, breathing in your scent and laying my cheek on your fine hair.
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Your koala-ness contrast sharply with independent spirit.  Oh, Aeralind, you are a girl who knows her mind and isn’t afraid to let someone know!  You do not like mango nor do you like the texture of butternut squash; and you make it known in no uncertain way! You clamp your lips closed, or stick your thumb in your mouth, or make the most incredible faces of disbelief.  Lately you’ve been fascinated by the task of feeding yourself. You’ll grab a piece of toast firmly in your hand and manipulate it carefully until you can pull put it in your mouth. 
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You spend your days (and even your daytime naps) working on all things physical!  Most of the time you are backing yourself into a corner and getting up onto all fours.  You love to rock back and forth and can do so for 2-3 minutes at a time.  You smile proudly as I cheer you on.  You have mastered putting your right leg out to the side and pushing with your foot.  You can go in circles this way and often you’ll make your circles wider so you can reach something you want.  You also have a pretty decent pincher grasp.  Last night you grabbed a red straw off your tray using only thumb and forefinger. You practice this pincher grasp by finding the tiniest little things to pick up off the carpet and stick in your mouth.  You’re making more frequent vacuuming a necessity :-p
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When we’re out in public, people call you “the serious one.”  At home you’re all smiles, but out and about you like to study things and process each situation before sharing smiles.  When you’re in the stroller, you’ll rarely play with even your favorite toy, so that you can focus on the interesting world around you. I still can’t believe how visual you are!  You’ll pick out my face across the room just to smile or the other day you fixated on little Caroline and smiled and squealed in delight at her.

Bronwyn Hope
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You have been dubbed “the pterodactyl.”  Words can’t describe how much you love to shriek in joy and how your little face lights up when me and daddy say “Really, Bronwyn?” or shriek back in acknowledgment.  Your whole body wriggles in delight when we smile at your antics and that makes you shriek even louder.  Oh, I love those shrieks of joy.  Even your tiny lungs can shout praise.
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Your personality is reflected so much by that shrieking.  You love to be the center of attention. You soak up praise like a tiny sponge.  You are always reaching for our cheeks, our lips, our glasses, or our hair just so you can catch our eyes and make us smile. You can feed yourself, but you’d much rather have us feed you pieces of food so that you can soak up that connection.
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You spend your days trying to decide what you want.  One minute you’re all excited to be sitting up like a big girl and manipulating the empty margarine tub, the next you’ll fall over so you can grab and chew on the keys, then you’ll roll over to your tummy because your sister is having so much fun with a ball that you want it too.  Maybe it’s not so much deciding what you want as it is thirsting for variety.  You sure are excited about sitting up though!  When you fall over, you never cry out; instead, I hear you fall and watch as you try with all your might to sit back up.
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When we’re out in public, people call you “the smiley one.”  You have never met a stranger! You will grin at them and try to grab their hair if they get too close. You’ll shriek to get attention.  But you’re also just as content to sit in the stroller, play with your toys, and kick the grab bar. In those moments, it’s almost like you’ve created your own world to play in and are undisturbed by the world passing you by.

More Gifts

424. Little girls  both chewing on Daddy’s belt
425. The gift (and trials) of being a stay at home momma
426. The ability to apologize
427. My sewing machine
428. Baby safe mesh feeders
429.The fragrance of honeysuckle
430. Little girls giggling as my lips mingle on their skin
431. Blueberries
432. A picnic with other Moms of Multiples
433. Aeralind scooting halfway across the living room to chew on my tiny bible
434. Bronwyn rolling around in her mommy-made crawler skirt trying to touch me.
435. Pancakes brought to me on Mothers day after I’d already been granted the gift of sleep until 10 am
436. The color Orange
437. Nana’s tears of joy and thankfulness
438. My grandma making it through surgery to have cancer removed
439. A yard full of happy yellow dandelions
440. another nap in my bed with sweet snuggly daughters
441.the Gospel

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