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Late Night Wakings Redeemed

I wake up in the night.  It’s probably the fifth trip I’ve made to the restroom since I went to bed 4 hours ago.

Things are not getting easier.

I almost want to complain.

But the truth is my body is working hard with the Creator to make someone new.

I find myself praying as I climb back into bed and rearrange all the pillows to find one comfortable spot.

“Thank You, Lord, the Little One is crazy wiggly.”

“Thank You, Jesus, that Derek will let me stay in bed until it’s time for him to leave.”

“Thank You, that I can’t do this without You… that your strength is made perfect in my weakness.”

And I slowly drift off, counting blessings instead of sheep.

Until the next restroom break and opportunity to give thanks.

2369-2387 things that I can thank Him for… even in the middle of the night.

  • “picnic” lunch with my ladies bible study group
  • Laughing as my girls think the older boys running around the room are running from them
  • Worn out girls
  • Spontaneous run to Hobby Lobby
  • Hysterical: how much those girls love Hobby Lobby!
  • Knitting a newborn photography wrap (or 3 so far…)
  • Ruthie watching the girls for my weekly OB appointment
  • Finding the girls wearing perfect plastic trash bag smocks and gleefully playing on a chair and step stool in the water fountains
  • Only Aunt Ruthie would do such a thing 🙂
  • Hearing Aeralind say “Bye, bye, Ruthie!”
  • Two word sentences
  • Derek staying home for a coup of extra hours while my body once again did a spontaneous colon cleanse
  • So much fun at the UMOM fall party at the orchard
  • Bronwyn so excited about seeing spiders on the hay ride that she squeaked every time she saw one
  • Girl’s picking out their very own ‘pukins!’
  • Snuggling with a strangely feverish Bronwyn and reading about her favorite Busy Spider
  • Happy Aeralind running around with her daddy in the back yard
  • So much yard and housework accomplished by my husband 
  • Little girls holding each others’ hands while we pray before meals

Mama Loves: DownEast Basics

Manic Mother

I’m 5’10”.

Being a tall girl isn’t so bad… except all of my extra height is in my torso.  I sometimes literally walk on the ends of “average” length jeans.  And if I fold my body in half… my head is centimeters from my toes (yes, I can do that… when I’m not bending over a baby bump!).

I have a way longer than average torso.  It doesn’t sound like that big of a deal, but it is.

Especially if you like wearing low to mid rise jeans (rather than “mom” jeans) and absolutely hate bending over chasing toddlers and sunburning your lower back.  Or that cold draft when your shirt raises in the back in the winter.  Or even worse: the dreaded “plumber’s crack”.  Eek!

For years, I’ve suffered all of these terrible fates wearing the fitted tee’s and tanks from such esteemed places as Target, Old Navy, Gap.  Nothing could prevent my lower back (or sometimes my tummy after an accidental hot wash) from being exposed.

And then one day I stumbled on DownEast Basics.  It was much the same as you’re probably stumbling on it now: some blogger was talking about it.  I skipped on over to their catalog and noticed something about their basic tees and tanks.

They said they have extra long length.

And at Target/Old Navy prices, I thought: “What have I got to lose giving them a try?”

So I ordered a few.

Good bye forever long torso woes: you’ve met your match.

Seriously, these shirts are extra long length.

Here’s me at 37+ weeks pregnant wearing a DownEast Wonder Tee.  A little short now… but I wore them until I really rounded out.

And just for a comparison… here’s an average length Old Navy tee thrown on top. (and me caught in mid-sentence…)

Did I mention they really are that long?  My tanks even stay tucked in my pants keeping me warm all winter!

However, the extra long length rule only seems to apply consistently to the Tanks and Tees (minus the Pretty and Demi tees).  The coveted length seems to be hit or miss with all their other tops (which are always super cute, stylish, and very comfortable despite their length), but I have a closet full of layering basics that keep me covered.

And for that I am thankful!

Oh and for you Mama’s of older girls: they have a great girl section too… I’m excited to graduate into 2T next spring!

Reality Check: You’re Not Alone

She states it slow and steady, “Sometimes we just feel alone…” her eyes glance on mine.
“Don’t look at me!” I cry and reach awkwardly for the tissue box as the dam breaks.

Motherhood is lonely.  Long hours. Little thanks. Constant comparison.

But worse still: the silence.

Women holding in their struggles because we’re all so caught up in perfectionism: the appearance of all things good.

That appearance is enough to make us believe the lie: that we’re alone- uncared for.

It’s the lie we met at the beginning and believed: “Did God really say?”  Is He withholding something from the that I need?  Withholding care.  Withholding friends.  Withholding the prefect marriage and perfectly obedient children that everyone else appears to have.  Is He withholding good things?
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Two days later the tears have dried.  The truth is slowly beating the lie.

Lacey stands before the room talking about Risk. About the risk of being vulnerable- of sharing reality.

The Risk of breaking that window of perfectionism so that we can see the beauty of Christ growing us refracted in the shards of our truly broken realities.
Counting #2334-2368 of the millions of Good Things God NEVER withholds.

  • Grace for the moment
  • Diane hugs
  • Hormonal tears
  • Hugs and snuggles when I pick the girls up from nursery
  • Girls playing with and talking about a rubber “‘nake” that grandma found at the lake
  • Flower from Ruthie with a sweet encouraging note
  • Complicated hairdo for Bronwyn to keep her hair from getting into her runny nose- so cute!
  • A super supportive doula
  • More applesauce canned
  • Apple Cider from Purdue’s
  • Painted toes
  • Still being able to reach my toes
  • Laughing at girl antics
  • Bronwyn blowing raspberries to demand I draw an elephant on her doodle pad
  • Snuggling on the couch watching TV with Derek
  • Listening to the harmonic from little lips
  • Lacey challenging us ot Risk
  • God’s timing in my heart with her talk
  • Praying for Julia when I felt the tug of the Holy Spirit
  • Hearing her tell what struggle I prayed with her through
  • Risking a little with Mandy. SO glad I did
  • Heather over to play
  • Girls and Ashton playing with cars
  • Two girls insisting on playing in one crib after a nap
  • Being informed we were going in our “seat” in the “gar” to the “bark” rather than the afternoon walk I had planned
  • Joy in following their plans
  • Grace from Derek after we drove a long way to a pumpkin festival and I was too weak and contract-y to walk the mile or so to the fair ground
  • Girls young enough not to be disappointed by a giant pumpkin house.  They didn’t notice the difference between that an a field of pumpkins
  • Free kids meals at IHOP after 4 🙂
  • Resting in bed an hour and a half after the rest of the house woke up
  • Laughter as girls climbed all over daddy
  • Laughing at little girl antics- running around with clear buckets on their heads
  • Weakness
  • Strength made perfect in weakness
  • Apple Butter and cream cheese cookie sandwiches
  • An extra day with Derek
  • Aeralind bouncing in an inflatable at a festival- un-phased by kids two times her size knocking her over

 

  • Little girls playing in a pool of bubbles

  • Bronwyn listening when we told her that continuing to rub her eye would just get more soap in it.
  • Aeralind holding sister’s hand unprompted as Bronwyn blinks back soap tears in the car seat

    Little One’s Nursery

    Little One’s Nursery is finally finished!  Except for a broken drawer slide that we’re getting fixed. 🙁  But since Little One could come any day now, I thought I’d go ahead and blog about the space.  My original design board can be seen here and I’m super excited about how that little design board poured creativity into this space 🙂

    I’m very proud of the handmade love in this room and would love to tell you about each little element in detail.  But if you’re not so detail oriented you can just skip reading the following section and enjoy the photos.  It won’t hurt my feelings 🙂

    Curtains

    I ended up choosing Premier Prints ZigZag in Village Blue for the curtain fabric. It did seem a little more gender neutral than my other option and I really love the zigzag effect.  I’m actually wishing the window in my bedroom was the same size so I could inherit them when Little One upgrades to a big kid room.

    The curtains are unlined with tab tops. Basically it’s just a simple rectangle with hems: totally my type of mindless sewing project 🙂

    One of our favorite little touches was finding this nifty bird curtain rod at one of the local home improvement stores (Lowes, I think?).  I’m pretty sure that all bedrooms will have this rod before we’re finished decorating.

    Wingback Chair and Accessories

    Our neighbor gave us this wingback chair when they bought new furniture.  There was nothing wrong with the piece structurally and it’s actually a decent solid color blue with some fading.  But we had no place where it truly fit in, and I wasn’t a fan of the formal look that wingback chairs have.

    And then one day I stumbled onto this video tutorial series on Slipcovering a Wingback chair from Miss Mustard Seed.  Perfect!  I was super intimidated by the whole process of slipcovering and I have been for years.  My furniture is all mis-mosh side of the road finds and I’ve wanted to make it match, but the price of slipcovers and the scariness of messing up all that expensive fabric scared me!  But for this chair, I thought that giving it a try with about $25 worth of drop cloth was totally worth it.

    To say I’m actually surprised by how easy this was is an understatement.  It was a pretty intense project with scraps and bits and pins and piping everywhere, but it wasn’t hard.  And even though it’s nowhere near perfect, I’m totally ready to jump into slipcovering my other furniture…. once life settles down a bit. 😉

    Pillows

    I wanted some pillows to go with the chair both to use my favorite accent fabric, Premier Prints Hooty Owl Village Blue,  and also to be able to give some support to my lower back while nursing.  Both square pillow forms were given to us with a couch from the same generous neighbor as the wing back chair. They’re simple envelop style covers with leftover piping from the wingback chair.

    The roll pillow is actually a rectangle form that I stuffed into a round pillow. I made that pillow by cutting a rectangle from the leftover zigzag fabric, sewing it into a cylinder while leaving a hole for stuffing in the form, and then gathering both ends.  It’s not exactly what I envisioned, but I does provide ample lower back support!

    Lamp 

     
    I hate turning on the big light to nurse, so we got this little lamp.  I simply painted it Sherwin Williams Morning Fog and ModPodged some cut out owls on it.  The side table is actually a patio table that we’ve had for years.  Simple, and serves it’s purpose 🙂


    Dresser and Accessories
    Oh, we wanted to build a dresser so badly for this room!  We wanted to give the baby a little heirloom piece to pass down.  But when we crunched numbers and found out that lumber alone would cost about $100 and we’d still need a few tools, paint, and stain… sight.  We ended up getting this dresser off Craigslist.  (Just a side note: dresser shopping on Craigslist when your budget is $50 or under is so frustrating!  No one gets back to you if they’ve already sold the dresser.)

    This dresser actually wasn’t terribly bad to begin with.  It had lots of dings and scratches (character), but was of a uniform color, had all of it’s knobs, and had good bones. I especially liked the little etching on the front.  It looks like tree leaves to me.  The only real problem was one beat up drawer slide that we’re getting replaced: hence, the currently missing drawer 😉  Not bad for $40!

    We took her outside and stripped the top of stain. Derek and I actually really enjoyed that process.  It was smelly… but we had a blast destroying something to make it better.  After stripping, we primed and painted the bottom and drawer fronts.  The final color is Sherwin Williams Morning Fog.  It’s a really great neutral gray.  Then, I stained and polyurethane-ed the top with an Antique Walnut Stain (I got it at walmart… too lazy to go look at it for the name brand).  Finally, I took a little brush and with some blue acrylic mixed with Morning Fog, I highlighted the fun etching. 

    Changing Pad Cover

    When I saw this fabric, I knew it belonged in this room!  It’s Wrenly Mama Birds by Valorie Wells, and it had a Mama bird with three little babies in parts.  This is actually the only piece leftover from the quilt backing and it was the perfect size to cover this little changing pad.  I just rounded the rectangle, sewed a casing along the edges, and threaded through some elastic.  Easy 🙂

    Fabric Basket

    I absolutely love the fabric basket in the girls room.  It was purchased, but it’s the perfect thing to hold wipes and creams.  I still had owl and zigzag scraps left, so I gave I decided to make one.  I loosely followed this tutorial and love how it came out!  It’s a little floppy, but it’ll serve it’s purpose and, unlike the girl’s basket, it’s completely washable when that inevitable ‘accident’ happens!

    Owl Bird Art

    Sadly, the lovely Owl and Birch Tree vinyl art was waaaaay outside of our budget.  We couldn’t make it work.  So I had to get creative with making wall art.  The Owls and zigzags here are simply adhered to scrap plywood cut to size by my sweet husband.  A few picture frame hangers later and we had some art!


    Owl Book

     
    My sweet friend Mandy made this with my final owl fabric scraps.  It’s filled with notes and prayers from the ladies who attended my shower for Little One.  It’s it such a sweet idea?!


    Owl Print

    Mandy also commissioned a friend to make this adorable Owl print for the nursery.  All those finger print leaves belong to people who love and are praying for Little One.  Can you tell Mandy totally spoiled me and Little One at the shower?!



    Crib and Accessories
    Like I mentioned in my design post, we have a borrowed Ikea Crib.  It seems a little longer than American cribs and the mattress is definitely longer.  If you get one of these, beware!, jersey sheets are the the only thing that will fit!  If it weren’t a borrowed crib… I probably would have painted it a fun color… 😉

    Little Owl

    Another friend at the shower, Heather, made this little guy!  Isn’t he adorable? The girls are in love with him!

    Quilt

     I initially thought I’d use the Hooty Owls, but since it’s home decorator fabric, it’s a little rough for a quilt.  After I stumbled on Valorie Wells’ Wrenly line, I knew that I needed to use that for my quilt! I grabbed a fat quarter set of cobalt, and a couple yards of Mama Birds for the backing and got to work.

    I used a pretty simple pattern from Sew4Home, and I pretty much copied their quilting lines.  This quilt top came together in about 3 hours and I think the whole quilt only took about 6-7 with binding (as usual) being the hardest part.  I pieced all my leftovers from the fat quarters onto the back to add a little interest. 🙂

    Tiny Rocker

    This was another amazing gift from my neighbors.  It’s so adorable.

    Bird Mobile

    I had some small scraps left from the fat quarters and I was set on making this bird mobile.  I had wanted to do it for the girls. Although the vinyl art was not in our budget, a package of stuffing and a couple packages of hooks were totally in the budget.  I didn’t have anything to lose except $10.  So I went for it.  And I love it.  Hearing the girls shriek, “Burd! Burd!” makes it totally worth it!


    Outlet Covers

    Once we painted the room in Sherwin Williams Lemon Meringue, it became very apparent that the black plastic outlet covers were not going to match very well.  Since we’d already spent a lot of money on this room, I was feeling too cheap to buy new covers. I started by attempting to paint them… but the paint just peeled right off… So I researched on the web a little and learned I could ModPodge fabric onto them.  Brilliant!  They may be one of my favorite accidental details in the whole room 🙂



    October

    I can’t tell you how glad I am that it’s finally October.  September was amazing and chock full of blessings.  But it was busy busy busy!   My family came Labor day weekend. Julia and her family were here Labor Day Week. The following weekend was the girls birthday party. The next week was filled with all the necessary doctors appointments (OB, Well Checks).  Then, Derek’s parents stopped in for the weekend before moving on to Georgia.  Derek worked a crazy week of overtime while his boss was out of town.  Then Derek’s parents returned for most of the last week in September.  Meanwhile, I’m trying to finish a nursery, edit a twin newborn session, and sleep when Little One lets me!

    October came in slow meandering across the evening like the cold front that brought it in.

    And we have soaked it up.
    Picking apples.

    Drinking hot cider and chocolate.
    Canning apple sauce, butter, and jams.
    Snuggling under covers.
    Enjoying the back yard.
    And mostly just wondering at how big, adorable, and suddenly talkative these girls have become over the course of the last month.

    I am so blessed.
    I can’t wait to see what the rest of October brings.
    Counting the bounty from a crazy September: 2304-2333 of the thousands of gifts He gives.

    • Girls sleeping until 8:30 after a long night for mommy
    • Not throwing up this time
    • Aeralind climbing out of the crib on her own (after sleep sack removal and with my permission) to join ill mommy in hte bathroom
    • Aeralind lifting my shirt to kiss my tummy when I said it hurt
    • Bronwyn bringing cups from the kitchen
    • First sheet fort on a rainy day
    • Bronwyn’s sense of order-making me tie on Cricket’s Scarf
    • Crazy long nap for ehausted momma
    • Catydid on the window at night
    • Mandy putting so much heart and effort into my shower!  I felt so valued
    • Laughter at Katie and Chanwey’s stories at the shower
    • Being surrounded by people I love and love me
    • Deck stained
    • Aeralind conduction a zoo trip “Bye bye, gibbons”, “Bye bye, ‘eopards.” and marching on!
    • Full sentences!! Finally (even if they are hard to understand!
    • Finding out my kids aren’t the only ones who think home improvement stores are a playground
    • Snuggling with Bronwyn after an epic face plant
    • Best pie cruste I’ve ever made
    • Sleeping in until 8:30
    • Photographing Sarah’s twins
    • Beautiful babies
    • Enough money in net profits to order a macro lens 🙂
    • Bronwyn begging to snuggle with mommy in the morning
    • Family snuggles and the cold front that makes it possible
    • Learning new PSE skills
    • The joy of the girls playing in their new Rock Box
    • The simple pleasure of hearing the girls rejoice over a cupcake or bird or elephant no matter how badly drawn on their doodle pads
    • Just enough fabric leftover to sew a changing pad cover
    • Generous shower gifts
    • A slow Sunday after a month of chaos
    • Cool weather making sleep easier
    • Apple Picking, Eating, and Riding in Wagons.

    holy experience